This is a watercolor painting I did back in January of last year. I haven’t posted in awhile and realized I haven’t updated my artwork in awhile. I did this out of the book Step By Step Guide To Painting Realistic Watercolors. It was a really fun learning experience! I would recommend the book as a way of learning watercolor techniques.
This is a watercolor still life and study of a beautiful cow skull I have. I love lines, form and structure of cow skulls. Macabre? Maybe. After reapplying myself to learning watercolor for a year or so this is the most happy I have been with a painting. It’s hard to see in this picture but I was really pleased with the fall out light in the background. I did that first and then next eighty percent of the process was frustrating but I came back around to enjoying the process and the outcome towards the end. This painting gives me hope for my potential.
In other news I have opened an etsy shop! Right now I have fabric and textile products up. Once I am finished with fine tuning details with the printer I am working with I will also list prints of my art, including this one. I am excited to see products that I have labored over and love all cozy and hanging out together.
Having read the War of Art, I know that feeling like giving up is normal. I know to push through it now. When I was working on this watercolor the question I asked myself was “How much and how strong of that feeling is normal?” Because I didn’t feel it like a whisper, but deafening trumpet while I was painting this. A “Why do I even bother, what am I thinking, I should just give this up” constant feeling. So far I have felt that way each time I tackle a painting. Sometimes it is not as strong and I can get past it sooner, say fifty percent of the time. I swear I felt that way during this piece about nintey two percent of the time. Painting it felt more like a struggle than relaxing and enjoyable. I am hoping that comes from being so new and not really knowing what I am doing. Somehow at the end I felt, “Okay. That isn’t horrible. That’s decent.” And then when it was done I immediately got out a new piece of fresh paper to tackle another painting, the next “puzzle”. I really want to keep a documentation of the process of learning to paint, and how this inner dialogue plays out. I read one artist say recently “Finally after fourteen years I am painting the way I always dreamed.” That was both frightening and encouraging at the same moment. Frightening because I am not far in and I have a long way to go; encouraging because it’s helpful to know how long others have had to keep at it. Sitting in front of the paper with brushes in my hands is some of the happiest moments I have. With each new painting, the more I push through and “fight the resistance,” the harder it is to imagine my future without doing it. So I’ll cling to that!